Recently I have been thinking about this. Happiness. What is it? How do you define it? Is it attainable? Can you find your happiness in this lifetime? Do we know what this is?
A couple of days ago I went through such a high and such a low in just one day, that I felt like I had some kind of split personality. I received a call in the morning from a friend who informed me that after many years and many attempts she had finally fallen pregnant. I screamed from utter joy as I know how much she has wanted this and it absolutely was the best news I'd heard in a long time.
I was floating on a cloud truly happy for her. Then as I was getting ready for bed in the late hours of that same day news came through to me that a dear friend had passed away. Just like that. Gone in an instant. My day had gone from elation to heartbreak.
Death has been a very big part of my life. I have attended funerals since I was a 10 year old child. I think my parent's wanted my brother and myself to learn from an early age not to fear death or a person who has died. We were always told it's God's plan and everyone has their destiny. But no matter how many times you hear of a death or how many funerals you attend, there are just some that shock you and you cannot understand why they had to go before their time.
I will not dwell on this part but the last few days has made me think a lot about what is it that we want in life?. My friend I believe knew what happiness was. It was his beloved wife, warm weather, a cold beer, Rhythm and Blues, his family, his friends, his pugs and the beach. For him it was simple. You wake up in the morning, you get out and you enjoy life. Every moment and every day counts and he did not waste a minute feeling sorry for himself. He is to me now an inspiration. Someone I will never forget. He will be that beacon of light guiding us all through our dark times.
For me happiness is my children. I love life and all it has to offer but until my children came along there was always something missing.
Happiness is also that quiet time in the evening when I can drink my tea and have some me time.
Happiness is a long hot shower on a cold day. A catch up with friends over a meal or a drink.
Happiness is the snow, cold winter days and some hot chocolate.
Happiness is my late father's Fish broth, hot and spicy with some warm bread.
Happiness is standing in a book shop and finding the next great novel I will read
Happiness is watching talented people doing talented things.
Happiness is the Art Gallery and pictures that tell a thousand words.
Happiness are my memories of my childhood and all my adventures.
Happiness is hearing my children laugh and call out "Mummy"
Happiness is of new things yet to come and what lies ahead.
What is your happiness? Have you found it? Or are you still looking for it?
Whatever the situation your in always remember you are here for a reason. No matter what that reason is you have been given a chance to experience life and all it has to offer.
It's your choice. But ultimately there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Let me know what your happiness is. Write me a comment below. I have had problems with this blog and comments but I think now this may be ok so give it a go.
I dedicate this Blog to my friend B.O. To a life cut too short. To a person that always made us laugh with his comical satire and unforgettable one liner's. And to the only person who could call you Fat and get away with it. The greatest stirrer and debater of them all. Forever in our hearts and missed dearly by everyone who knew him.
I leave you with this today:
"CARPE DIEM" Seize the day. Happiness is by choice, not by chance.
