Let me just start by saying Happy New Year. I seem to have skipped the blogging for Xmas and the holidays. But 2014 for me was a bit of an uninspiring year. I think my life comes and goes in a few yearly blocks. You have a period of time where things happen and they keep happening and then it stops and a new cycle starts. The last few years for me were a bit of a battle. I was battling with myself and things that I needed to accept. I battled with overwhelming negativity which quite frankly I am not used to and was beginning to be swallowed by. I battled with certain people who for reasons even I don't understand just simply wouldn't get off my case and leave me be. I simply just felt like I was climbing a mountain with heaviness and no peak in sight. I was just sick of it all. I just felt BLAH. I didn't like it. It wasn't me. I usually didn't allow this type of behaviour to get to me. I really hated it.
But as always in my life when faced with adversity, I just wake up one day and bang it's all over!!! I cannot tell you how much I have been looking forward to 2015. The new cycle has started. I have awoken. I feel positive, inspired, happy and grateful for everything I have and everything I have achieved. I am excited for what is to come and I just cannot wait to get the ball rolling.
I made some decisions and plans and I look forward to executing them shortly. I have put behind me all the things that were dragging me down. My conversations are no longer about why things are happening to me but rather YES let's get started.
I think in life you always have the ups and downs but if your anything like me you know that everything except death is temporary and you are the master of your destiny. You are the person who needs to make it happen. Only you can get rid of the rubbish swirling in your mind and only you can fight your demons.
I'm happy to say I'm comfortable where I am and where I'm going. Yes I'd like to lose that extra 10 kilos but I'm not insecure about it. It's something that will go in time. I'm just happy I'm alive!!
What I am most excited about is my future plans. I won't reveal all now. As I'm going to need Blog material later, however for me change is in the air and I love it. I enjoy it when things are going in a good direction, fingers crossed it all goes smoothly.
As for all the negativity which threatened to take me down in 2014, I can truly say that is behind me. I learnt a valuable lesson last year. A lesson which I really shouldn't of had to learn. I should have been a better judge of character, but I forgave myself. We all make mistakes. I was vulnerable, someone took advantage and left me reeling. It happened at the worst time, however it probably needed to happen to slap me back into reality. I needed to get back to being who I really was not this person who was fading away and allowing the bullshit to take over.
I did a lot of soul searching and a hell of a lot of reflecting. I came to the conclusion that no matter what I do, I have the support of a great family, I do have good friends, I have beautiful children and above all I have my health and I have my strength. (Not to mention most of my teeth).
With that in mind this year is brighter and fuller. Some people are not as lucky as me. I know what I'm capable of, I know myself at my best and worst, I have things money can't buy and I'm looking ahead at the new adventures coming my way.
2015 is THE YEAR. I feel it in my bones. I hope wherever you are and whatever your doing this year brings you luck and happiness. That this is the beginning of YOUR new cycle. That this year you will recieve the fruits of your labour, the love of your life, the children you pray for and the strength and courage to move to a new city or new country. To apply for that job, to marry the girl of your dreams and to jump out of that plane. To eat that cake, to run that marathon, to see the world, to buy that house.
Whatever it is you wish for I hope you achieve it. No mountain is too high. You will get there. Patience and determination will see you through. Life can be excruciatingly painful. But it's life. It can also be beautiful. You are here, live in the moment. Get out there and do your thing!!
See you at the finish line to collect your rewards. I'll be the one eating the cake. (The low fat one of course). xo
“Get going. Move forward. Aim High. Plan a takeoff. Don't just sit on the runway and hope someone will come along and push the airplane. It simply won't happen. Change your attitude and gain some altitude. Believe me, you'll love it up here.”
― Donald Trump
