The Pressure's of Motherhood and other things.

I didn't think I'd become a Mother.  Not because I didn't want to, but just because my life didn't seem to be going in that direction.  I had a couple of failed long term relationships behind me, I was way into my late 30's, and I thought it just wasn't going to happen.  I wasn't upset by this. I had my niece and nephew who I spent enormous amounts of time with.  I accepted that maybe this wasn't going to be my path in life and I was content and didn't feel I had missed out on anything.  My life was full and busy and I was looking forward to whatever the future held for me.

Well, when you least expect it your life just does one big turnaround.  Within a matter of 6 years, I have managed to snag myself a partner,  give birth to two kids, move to another state and have my life turned upside down.  I surprised many people with this including myself!  I have had some incredible high's but also some very bad lows.  In this time I also lost my father, lost a few friendships and saw some things in people that I thought was reserved for my past.  I also have learnt a lot about myself.

It took me about 3 years to realize I wasn't the same person as I was before.  At a drop of a hat I could be anywhere.  Just grab my keys, my purse and away I'd go.  Any party, any event, anything wasn't too much.  I could stay up till all hours and I would vary rarely say no to anything.  I enjoyed my freedom, enjoyed being out of the house I was never a homebody.

These days it's not as easy to just go on a whim.  Firstly organizing babysitting is difficult for me.  My only support network ( which is mainly my mum ) lives in another state.  So I sometimes ask my children's Godparent's who are always willing to help out as best as they can. But I don't ask all the time.  I have also discovered that when you have small children under 4 like I do, people tend to not invite you to as many things as when your single and always available.  It's like you now belong to this other club where children's parties and get togethers are the only place reserved for you.

In saying this I also find that when I am out without my children, I am constantly thinking about them.  I find it hard to relax as they are always on my mind and I'm always looking at my watch.  Whereas before I didn't care when I came home.  It's a catch 22 all round.

I feel guilty when I leave my kids and I'm not with them.  I made a conscious decision not to work until they started school so I could be with them as much as I can while I can.  I spent my whole life from the age of 15 onwards working so really it was a big step for me. But I gave up my career and at first I enjoyed it.  Yes it was tiring, and it took me a while to get the hang of it, but my first year or two was good.

But then I started to feel stifled, claustrophobic and a little bit depressed.  I started to resent comments like " Oh your a stay at home mum lucky you"  like I did nothing all day. I resented some of the higher then though attitudes I received from other Mother's who were working and acted like they were somehow more Superior than me.  When really I would think that all mother's would understand each other and empathize with each other's situation's.  Some people would even go so far as to say I wasn't contributing, that I just did nothing but paint my nails and watch soapies, that my partner was the hard worker.  The poor person who had to work all day, while I just twiddled my thumbs.  (Yeah right ).  When in reality it was quite the opposite.

I myself am guilty of being one of those people who thought stay at home mother's had the best of it. This was before I had children and knew anything about rearing them.   But really in my opinion no mother whether working or at home has the best of it.  You are actually doing the best you can.  Your trying to keep the house in order, the kids happy, your partner satisfied and a lot of the time there is nothing left for yourself.  If couple's survive the first 5 year's of their kids lives then your on a winner.  I can see why people split when they have small children.  No sleep and you barely have time to talk to each other.  When you do get some time out, all you want to do is lie down somewhere. We long for 8 hours sleep. Actually 6 hours would be nice right now!!!

Your job as a Mother is all encompassing.  It's 24 hours a day 7 day's a week.  No time off, no sick days, no excuses.

I went through a very hard time at a certain stage.  You always hear about the Super mother's who have everything under control.  Their houses look like museums; spotless perfect.  Dinner is cooked, table ready, they are there to greet their husband's, they entertain their kids, they are always smiling, always happy, life is good, no problems, no issues. no worries. They survive on no sleep, they can do the job of 10 people and nothing is too hard.

I'm beginning to wonder whether or not this is a myth.  Just like the Loch ness monster.  You hear the stories, but are they real??

After going through my dark phase, I turned a corner.  Mainly at the beginning of this year.  A few things had come to a head for me.  It's like I was walking through a fog and had come out the other end.  All of a sudden everything became clear.

What had actually happened is I was trying so hard to be this good, perfect mother, I was so focussed on my children and partner, that I forgot about myself.  I forgot who I was for a little while.  I let certain things slide which I never would have before.  I avoided confrontation with people when previously I would have shut down any negativity coming towards me. I just somehow internalized everything.  It's like staying at home shut me out.  For those that know me would know that this was very unlike me.

I have always been a fighter.  My parent's used to joke that I was born with a fist jutting out.  That as a child I was severely independent and that I would fight for my right's at every turn.  I was protective of my younger brother and my close friends.  I would never allow anyone to belittle me and if people gossiped I didn't care.  I just went on and did what I wanted because really why care about idiots who had nothing better to do but talk about you.  Get a life I used to say.  Meanwhile I was out living mine.

So that person has now come back.  My hiatus is over.  I think with my Father passing away, my second pregnancy soon after ( and not an easy one I might add), certain people's attitude's and behaviour, all affected me as a person and I was too tired to fight back.  All I could focus on was getting through the day.  I could barely keep on top of things.  I just couldn't deal with it all at once.

Motherhood has definitely changed my attitude and thought's to some things and to some people.  I have let go of my resentment.  In it's place is someone who has learnt that everything in life is a learning curve.  That most things are temporary.  We are not going to live forever. I have also learnt that I just don't have time for negativity.  My kids need me as their rock, their role model and just as their mum.

There are different pressure's and ways to deal with them.  My mental toughness has always got me through everything.  I look at my beautiful children and thank God for them every day.  For all the things that have hit me in the last few year's they are my brightness, my light, my love and my life.

These two little human beings that I helped create are reason enough for me to see that life is full of miracle's.  That really if we are un happy or something is not right, not to give into it but to meet it head on and say. "Stuff you"  ( or the other alternative ).

I now do give myself some time out.  I take Zumba classes twice a week which helps relieve some of my stress.  Thursday nights I often go shopping on my own so I can get things done.  Every month I get my nails done and a pedicure. Occasionally I will go out with a girlfriend or two.  I spend as much time as I can hugging and loving my children.  Watching them grow and listening to their voices and funny stories.  My daughter has started walking and is saying words.  She is quite the character.  I see a lot of my independence in her.  She's feisty and tough, but sensitive too. A little mini me that looks like her father.   My son is my little comedian.  He is at that age where everything he says is funny.  But he is so smart, intuitive and thoughtful.  He's my right hand man.

I feel that this blog post has been a little revealing but cathartic for me.  I just wanted to put it out there that not everything is as it seems.  If you see a mother yelling at her child or going crazy in a shopping centre then don't judge.  Alternatively if you see one that looks immaculate, her kids dressed perfect, her face under control don't assume that all is o.k.  Looks can be deceiving.  Just don't feel you know someone just because of the way they look. 

If you are a Mother yourself or you are the other half of the dynamic duo then be kind to yourself.  Be kind to each other.  A cup of tea, a nice word, helping each other out or asking for help may relieve some of the pressure's.

If you are doing it on your own, don't beat yourself up and don't be hard on yourself.  Find a support network, join a group or turn to your friends.

Whatever your situation there is always somewhere you can turn and there is always someone who  can relate to you.

I have now embraced motherhood for everything that it is.  Pressures and all.  It has made me richer as a person, stronger as an individual and I look forward to everything else I need to tackle and embrace as time goes by.

I will be away for about a month spending time with my loved one's in my hometown of Melbourne so I won't be writing until I get back.

Take care peeps.  Hopefully you found some enjoyment or something that strikes a chord with you in this blog post.  At the end of the day we are all human.

Seeya!


In a child's eyes, a mother is a goddess. She can be glorious or terrible, benevolent or filled with wrath, but she commands love either way. I am convinced that this is the greatest power in the universe.”
― N.K. Jemisin, The Hundred Thousand Kingdoms    

What's in MY BAG

Or should I say, what's in THE BAG I share with my kids!!! 

Let's face facts here.  I was never a minimalist.  Not for lack of trying. (Believe me I have tried!) I am one of those people who takes everything with me "just in case".  Travelling overseas I would send 2 suitcases of luggage before I even got on a plane myself (with another suitcase and carry on).  I would pick up my luggage at my destination and away I'd go.  Much cheaper then paying for it to go with you.  It wasn't all clothes and stuff for myself.  It included presents for family and friends and also I would leave room for things that I would buy or be given to take back with me.  Usually sending it back again by itself on a ship or plane.

Nowadays they only allow you about 25kgs in check in luggage (depending on which airline) when travelling to other countries. (Economy class) . Seriously my makeup bag weighs that much!!

Anyway let's get back to my everyday bag.  Over the years I have had all sorts of bags.  Bordering a long Medium to Large for work and medium to small for going out.  Usually going out with friends on the weekend in the evening I would only need my keys, money, cards, a face powder for touch ups, a lipstick, mints and my phone.  Sometimes it would include band aides, needle and thread, safety pins, a nail file and some water.

So you can imagine what I would take in my everyday bag.  Going to work I would have my wallet, keys, phone, small can of hairspray, makeup bag, small first aid kit, mints, work diary and everything else I could squash in there.  I went through so many bags over the years. Some couldn't withstand all the crap I had in there and others just were not practical.  I also would get bored and buy a new one now and then.

My bag now is quite large.  When I first had my son I bought a beautiful fashionable and quite expensive baby bag.  I wanted it to be stylish, durable and something that was practical.  Well that didn't work.  The bag was nice but it wasn't big enough and it wasn't durable enough.  I ended up carrying two bags.  Since then I have gone through about 3 bags for him and 2 for my daughter.  The one I have now I'm happy with.  It's actually a travel bag but it fits everything we all need.

This is what I now have in here.  I go through phases so this isn't always the contents of my bag but for now this is it:

These are the things that are always there.  Stuff I cannot live without.  From time to time it varies, including the occasional toy, receipts, books etc. 

 

 

 

Nappies and Wipes.  I do not leave home without these!!  Wipes are also good for cleaning up any little accidental spillages or sticky fingers.  I look forward to the day my kids can do without these completely.  Although I think I will be carrying wipes with me everywhere...They come in handy for an array of disasters!!

 

My make up bag.  I have all sorts of things in here from lipsticks, lipliners, powder, small eyeshadow kit and brushes.  This also varies from time to time.  But no matter what large bag I'm carrying I always have a little makeup bag. O.k maybe not so little. However, this for me is a must.  Especially now when my kids are constantly touching my face and I'm running around all day!! I may do a separate blog post as to what I have in here.  It will take up too much room if I do it now!

 

 

 

 

Water Bottles.  I have one for myself, for my son and my daughter has a smaller one which is not pictured here.  We do not leave the house without water ever.  I don't like my kids drinking soft drink.  I let them have an occasional apple juice but I prefer them to drink water.  They love it so I have no problems there.

Snacks.  Sometimes when I'm on the run, or shopping and I don't have time to stop, I give my kids some healthy snacks.  Fruit bars are their favourites. Great and handy when they are sitting in the shopping trolley or pram.

Sunglasses, Pen and Bibs.  I cannot drive without my sunglasses.  Even in Winter when it's cloudy and glary. I always have a pen with me to write in my notebook, and the bib is for my daughter because when she eats it goes all over her clothes!

 

 

Bottles, keys and purse.  Just like the snacks I don't travel without my daughters bottles.  She enjoys having milk on the road and if I can't get to milk I have her favourite formula mixture in a little pot as you can see in the picture.  My keys and purse are self explanatory.

My phone.  Well for obvious reason's I do not leave home without my phone.  Also comes in handy when my son becomes antsy so I let him play a few games. This keeps him quiet when I'm in line or I we have to wait at banks etc.

My trusty notebook.  I write my ideas, things I need to do, my lists, addresses and everything else I need in one spot.  Also under there I have a large face washer.  It comes in handy when I need to change my daughter's nappy.  I previously used disposable nappy change sheets and sometimes I use handtowels if I have nothing else but the face washer has all sorts of uses!!  Plus I'm not wasting copious amounts of paper. Just above my notebook you can maybe see a small shirt.  I always carry spare clothes for my daughter and occasionally for my son.  You never know when there may be a disaster of some kind and you need a change of clothes.  Actually if I could, I'd bring myself a change of clothes. I somehow never come home quite how I left!

 

 

 

Bottle holder:  This particular bag I have does not hold bottles on the side like most baby bags so I put them in here.  It's insulated so keeps bottles warm or cold.  Fits two bottles and can fit a small container of food.  Very Handy!

 



 

So there you go!  I'm sure some of you mother's can relate to me.  If you can get away with carrying less stuff please let me know how you do it!  Leaving the house takes a good 15 minutes because I have to check if I have everything with me.  Also, leaving any destination to come home is a good 15 minute wait to make sure I've put everything back in the bag to come home!

 

I look forward to the day I can have a nice bag for myself again, with no bottles or nappies flying out of it.

 

I leave you with this today:

 

“There is no way to be a perfect mother, and a million ways to be a good one” - Jill Churchill

 

Until next time SEEYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The month that was...

It's been a bit of an up and down month for me. From my previous posts you will see that I did some renovations.  I also updated my make-up collection and bought a new vanity.  I will add some more reviews on the make up I bought as I have had a chance to trial it all.

Besides that I have been feeling a bit flat.  I have kept up with my Zumba classes twice a week to give myself time out, a chance to exercise and speak to other women.  ( As I like to call it running away from home for an hour ).

But I have just been feeling blah. Normally in Winter I am very upbeat and happy.  Cool weather excites me. Most people are either hibernating or hiding this time of year.  I actually like to go out and find I am most active when it's freezing. Heat takes the life out of me, so its a bit surprising I have been feeling this way.  I'm putting it down to hormones. Since I have had my daughter I have felt a bit unbalanced.  I may take a trip to my GP to have a check up and see what I can do.

I think most of us have at one time or another not felt quite right for whatever reason.  I think it's helpful to have someone to talk to or be aware and find a way to rectify the issue at hand.  It could just be simply something is out of balance in your system, you may be feeling uninspired or maybe your just taking time out from the world.

Whatever it is be sure to take care of yourself as much as possible.  Often mother's with small children under 4 ( or young children in general ) do not get enough sleep, tend to skip meals and not have enough time out.  Get your husbands/partner's to help you out as much as you can and if it all gets too much then give yourself a break.  After all none of us are Superhuman even if we try to be.  I put a lot of pressure on myself to have everything organized and sorted.  Most times these days I am failing in that department.  But I have to tell myself that there is only one of me and if I can't finish something it's not the end of the world. As long as we are all happy and healthy then everything else will fall into place.

Here are some of the things I have bought and trialled this month. Below I have added my finished Vanity, chair and draws.  Hopefully you find something that you may like for yourself or for someone you know.  Or maybe I have given you some great ideas.

This is the top of my Vanity with the draw pulled out.  I bought dividers from Howard's storage and Ikea to organize everything you see in the draws.  On my table I have makeup palette's which are in mail and napkin organizers from Office Works and Ikea. Make up brushes are in plant pots which I bought from Ikea as well.  I keep my Ear buds (Q tips), makeup wipes, tweezers and spare eyeshadow applicators in small lollie jars which cost me about $2 from Cheap as Chips.  I also hold all my creams and lotions on a small cake stand I bought from a Home ware store. The lipstick holders I bought online at Ebay and Target.  The Zebra print coaster I bought from a gift store. It came in a pack of 4.  I think the place I bought it from is called Orange Story. Finally there is a small acrylic 3 draw holder which I use to keep my lipglosses and that cost me about $8.00 from K-mart.

My vanity is from Ikea.  Its called the Malm Dresser draw. Its not too big or long so fits perfectly in the bedroom.

This is the chair I decorated.  I bought a chair from Ikea and just covered it with a chair cover and Zebra sash both from ebay.  I couldn't find a chair I liked to complement my room décor so this was the most cost effective way to do it.  Next to my vanity in the back I have 9 draws also from Ikea which are called the Alex draws.  These fit all my extra bits and pieces and looks great with the vanity.

I am just glad that I can have something organized to my liking.  No go zone for the kids.  Although they have snuck in there a couple of times and enjoyed touching everything!!  Argh!!


Now for some make up reviews.

Pur Minerals Correcting Primer in Peach.  ( They come in other colours, Green and natural)

I have been using this primer for a while now and it's very good.  It corrects my skin tone, gives me a brighter look and covers a few of my less then perfect area's.  Very good to wear under foundation.  I find this is one of the better primers and I bought it off the TVSN shopping chanel.  They have a website which I will link below if you want to look at any of their other products or if you want to buy this primer!

Physicians formula Happy Blusher ( on left ) in Natural and Glow and Mood Boosting powder ( on right ).

I have always liked physicians formula.  For years I wore their baked eye shadow trios.  Good quality and pigmentation.  The blusher here looks very bright but actually is a nice light colour on skin.  Its not muddy and has a bit of a shimmer to it.  This would be great in summer over a BB or CC cream or light foundation.  The powder on the right is great if you just want to set your foundation and not use anything too over the top.  Gives your skin a nice glow.  You can also use parts of it to highlight your cheekbones, nose and cupids bow.  All in all if your looking for something light with a bit of a glow then I would recommend these.  Reasonably priced.

Maybelline 24 hour Colour Tattoo.  Colours from left going clockwise: 45Bold Gold, 55 Inked Pink, 70 Barely Branded and 25 Bad to the Bronze.

I have never been a fan of cream eyeshadows I never thought they lasted long and I didn't think they suited me.  Well I finally found one's that last and that suit my complexion .  I saw these recommended by a lot of women on youtube. So I thought I'd try them.  These do last all day.  I haven't tried them for 24 hours ( I don't think I'd last that long ). However, I can see they have staying power.  They make a great base to other eyeshadows too.  I got them while they were on sale for about $9.00 each.  I also think that if you couldn't be bothered or didn't have time to put on too much eye make up then this is for you.  Literally smooth one or two shades with your finger add some mascara and eyeliner and your good to go.

The next two products almost have identical packaging but are very different companies and are at opposite ends of the pricing scale.

On the left is Nars Hungry heart duo and on the right is Elf Contouring blush and bronzing powder in St .Lucia.

Hungry Heart by Nars are great highlighters that can be worn along the cheek bone, down the bridge of your nose, cupids bow or anywhere you want the light to reflect.  The price tag is a bit steep anywhere between $50 - $60.  If you have the money then why not.  But on the other hand for about $6.00 to $12.00 depending on where you buy this from Elf have a bronzing, blush duo which is absolutely worth the money.  The bronzer is fantastic for contouring your face just under your cheeks, sides of forehead,  sides of nose and under your chin.  The blush is a very soft nice peachy pink shade with some shimmer in it which also gives you a nice glow.  I have been enjoying these the last week or so.  I don't use them both at the same time but I mix and match with other makeup.  Elf also has a highlighting blush, similar in colour to Hungry heart.  So if you do not want to part with a lot of money then buy this!!  If you are new to make up I would definitely recommend Elf.  Very affordable and great quality.

Finally we have lipsticks.  I'm always looking for really good one's. Usually I opt for a Matte shade and put lipgloss over the top.  The lipsticks above are from NYX .  It is the Aqua Luxe range.  I bought these online as my local Target didn't stock these particular one's.  Let me just say I have found my favourites of all time.  These are so smooth, so beautiful.  It gives a gorgeous shine and brightens up your whole face without being too over the top.  I only bought one Matte shade the rest don't need lipgloss as it gives you a lipstick/lipgloss effect.  I highly recommend these.  Absolutely love them and will keep buying them.  They only cost about $4 -$6.00 online. BARGAIN!!!! I refuse to pay anymore then about $20.00 for a lipstick. (And even that is steep sometimes) Anything over that for me is a waste of money.  In Australia a Mac lipstick costs anywhere between $36 dollars and above.  I find that ludicrous.  I love Mac, but when I think how much I paid for the one's above, they are worth much, much more and I am happy with my choice.  I'd rather spend $36 on good quality eyeshadow or eyeshadow palette.

The colours from left to right are:  Summer breeze, Holistic, Forbidden (which is the only matte shade), Aurora, Elusive, Enchanting, Glory, Lotus.


Please see links to websites to buy the above products:

For furniture, homewares, décor and knick knacks:                 www.ikea.com
Target online:  Nyx Makeup                                                     www.target.com.au
Nyx you also can buy at Cherry Culture online                   www.cherryculture.com
For anything you can't find elsewhere try Ebay:                      www.ebay.com
For Elf makeup: ( Also at K-Mart)                                           www.iherb.com

Physicians Formula and Maybelline:  Priceline Stores:           www.pricline.com.au
TVSN Shopping channel 14:                                                    www.tvsn.com.au

For my U.S friends Ulta and Walgreens will have most of the makeup I have on here.

Hope you enjoyed my reviews.  Until next time I leave you with this:


Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.”
― Mahatma Gandhi

I'm BACK!!

Well technically I never really went anywhere.  It's been so long now since my last entry I'm beginning to think I've forgotten how to write.  As I mentioned in my previous post I was tied up with a lot of events.  One of which was cleaning up the study.  I can finally say its done.  We threw out all the old stuff, bought some great functional desks and storage boxes.  The old carpet has been replaced.  It now looks like a proper study, and it's a lot easier to find things.

Along with this the bedroom received a make over.  New carpet, a fresh coat of paint, new bed linen and I treated myself to a nice dresser and chair.  I can now do my make up in peace in one room without walking back and forth through cupboards.  I'm just waiting for my mirror to be put up. Below is what it looks like without the mirror. I covered the chair with a chair cover and sash I bought from ebay.  The dresser/vanity, chair and draws are from Ikea.  My little diamanté rubbish bin in the corner is from the Reject shop.  I will do a proper little tour next time but for now at least I'm happy with the outcome.  I can use my little Shaver shop light up mirror until my other one is sorted and the dresser is right near the window so I get plenty of natural light.

My new make up has slowly been arriving ( thank you Australia Post ).  Actually people must think I'm having an affair with the courier driver.  He has been over that often in the past 3 weeks my neighbours must be thinking what's going on over there?

Having two kids under 4 and one of which is extremely hyper active, I find it difficult to shop at retail outlets.  I can't really peruse or try things.  One child is either screaming for food a drink or a toy and the other one wants to climb and crawl and cause me heart failure.  So online shopping is a God send!!!

I also find that I can buy stuff cheaper online.  A lot of the make up I wanted cost a fortune in Australia, so I purchased it from the U.S and the U.K with reasonable delivery charges and in some cases FREE delivery.

I discovered quite a few really good bargain companies that received rave reviews on You Tube by make up guru's and I'm impressed with the products so far.

Below is what I have tried and what I can recommend to you at this stage.  I will do other reviews in my next blog.

Let's start with some eyeshadow palette's I recently purchased:  I will link below all the sites I buy from.


Too faced Boudoir eyes:  Prior to going on You Tube I had never heard of this Make up Company.  I am glad I came across it.  They have the most gorgeous packaging.  This particular palette has three large base shades and 4 smaller one's. It comes in a handy tin that can be easily travelled with.  You also receive a leaflet showing you 3 looks you can achieve.  The shades can be blended lightly or you can add more for a smokey night time look.  This I would recommended if you are going out for a night with the girls, dinner with your b/f, husband, partner, or if you want  gorgeous eyes that stand out but are different to the usual black smokey look. Recommended.  Price anywhere between $37-$50 AUD.



                                                                     

 

 

 

 

Smashbox MasterClass Palette 2:  If you need a large palette with everything in it then this is the one for you.  With over 24 shimmering and matt shades.  2 Highlighters, 5 blushes, 4 gel eyeliners and a contouring bronzer. All you need is to take a lipstick, foundation and mascara and you have everything.  There are shades to suit everyone and you can achieve a multitude of looks.  Most of the shades are highly pigmented and the highlighter shades are gorgeous!  Definitely take this if you are planning a long trip somewhere and don't have space for a lot of makeup palettes.

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Balm Rock n Roll Balm Jovi Pallette and Meet Matt Nude Palette:  Besides the fun and flirty packaging these two palettes offer very different looks.  The first Rock n Roll Palette, is for lovers of colour and drama.  Palette comes with 12 eyeshadows, a highlighter, blush and two lip colours.  Also great for travel.  There are quite a few shimmery metallic shades in this one. So if you like a bright shiny shimmery eys this one is for you.  Meet Matt Nude is for lovers of pure Matt buttery eyeshadows.  I love this palette.  Great for a daytime look.  Makes your eyes look smooth.  Easily blended colours and you can go from subtle to dark.  This is great from work to night time functions.  As its buildable and long wearing.  Approximately:  $40-$65 each depending on where you buy.

 

 

Chi Chi Bronzes and Naturals Palettes:  If your a beginner in make up or you just want some nice basic affordable shades then these are the palettes for you. Retailing at about:  $22.00 each and can be found in your local Target.  So if you don't like going on the internet you can pick these up easily.  These shades are highly pigmented, look beautiful, are accessible and easy to use.  Fits in your bag and the colours suit everyone. 

 

 

Urban Decay Naked Palette: When I emptied out my draws of all my old make up this was the first palette I bought online. 12 mostly metallic shades with a couple of Matte shades.  This looks great for a night time look.  On me personally during the day is too much.  But then again I'm not 20 anymore.  I have worn this quite a few times in the evening since I bought it.  It catches the light and makes your eyes sparkle. Definitely a great buy if you enjoy metallic shades.  Naked also have the Naked 2 and 3 palettes which I currently do not own.  But I do have their Naked Basics which I have yet to try.  Price:  Anywhere between $55 - $79 depending on which Website and availability.

 

 

 

 

 

Powder Foundation:  NYX Stay Matte but not flat and Milani Powder foundation

 

I discovered NYX online but I now know it is sold in Target Stores across Australia.  This Powder foundation is exactly what it says it is.   It gives great coverage but doesn't give you a cakey powdery look.  Milani foundation is slightly a lighter texture but buildable.  I love these when you just don't have time to mess around with liquid foundations.  For those of you who are always in a hurry like me this is great for mornings when your doing the school run or have to get up early with little time to do your face.  NYX Powder Foundation Approx: $15.00 in store (Half price online) Milani Powder Foundation bought online: $8.00

 

 

 

 

Milani Baked Blushes: Let me just say that I love Milani.  It's very affordable make up but excellent quality. I discovered Milani also on You Tube.  I'm not sorry I have given them a try.  These blushes are the bomb.  I have them in the colours Luminoso which is the one on the right, middle is Corallina  and far left is the Rose D'Oro.  These are up there with the best of them.  They give your cheeks are gorgeous colour but not overpowering. They have a slight glow about them but not too shimmery.  You must check these out.  Online you can pick these up for about $8.00 BARGAIN!!!  Just look at the packaging.  You would think you paid a lot more than that!

 

 

 

 

That's it for my reviews.  I hope you find something in here that's for you.  I will in my blogs following do some more reviews on different things I'm trying.  I'm just happy all the clutter is leaving me and I can enjoy some new things...!!!

You can purchase all NYX, Milani, Urban Decay, Too Faced and The Balm products :

 

 

 

Links: www.cherryculture.com

www.crushcosmetics.com.au

www.beautyjoint.com

www.beautybay.com

www.ebay.com

 

 

You can  also buy NYX and Chi Chi from any Target store in Australia

 

I leave you with this:  A girl should be two things:  Classy and fabulous....... Author:  Coco Chanel

 

 

 

 

Agreed!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Catch up

It's been a while since my last entry. 3 weeks if not more. Sorry about that.  Sometimes life becomes quite hectic.  I have had my daughter's Christening and the preparations that went with it all.  I have had interstate visitors to entertain and my God sister is here from Europe.

I now have Z's birthday to organize and my son's.  So hopefully when all that is done I can sit down and have a breather.

Amongst all of this I have been de-cluttering and re-organizing things in the home. Well the study to be exact.  I spend a lot of my time there.  Whether its on the computer or paying bills or just doing some personal stuff.  I started to feel it was all falling on top of me so I've been cleaning it out, redecorating and adding a few nice little knick knacks.  Mind you I could have had it done in a couple of days.  But I'm working it around the kids and the busy life I'm leading.

I have enjoyed going to our Home Maker stores and picking out a few little things.  I love IKEA. They have so many practical but nice things you can buy and it doesn't cost you the Earth.  I bought a stack of draws and its amazing how nine draws can clear up half a room.

I've been throwing out all my old make up and brushes and I've invested in some brand new stuff.  I love makeup.  I love wearing it and buying it.  I love someone buying it for me.  I love perusing make up counters.  I have been watching you tube videos to to see which products are rating well in reviews.  I never buy anything without researching it first.  Call me pedantic or whatever but I will read the written reviews and I will watch the video demonstrations. Then I will make a decision.

While I was there,  I thought I would look at some tutorials on make up application, which brush is used for what, etc.

WELL!!!  Let me tell you.  I always fancied myself as a bit of an expert in make up application.  I don't know what I've been doing all these years, some how I've pulled it off.  BUT  I've been doing it wrong!  Some of the ways I have been applying my make up hasn't been too bad, however, after watching these tutorials I see now how I can improve the way I do things.

I decided  I seriously needed to re-think the products I'm using and the way I'm putting it on.

I started by buying some good brushes.  I have yet to receive them.  I've also invested in some new Eyeshadow/Blush pallets, foundation, lipstick, liners, primers and concealers.  Some are a bit pricey but some are extremely affordable.  I am always out for a bargain.  But I like good quality products.  So even if its cheap I won't buy it if its rubbish.

When I receive all the products I have ordered and tested them I will write up my own review.  I think its important to know these things. Its not World changing, but if, like me,  you want to do things the right way and use the right products then this is for you.

Three straight nights of watching make up reviews and tutorials has really opened my eyes up.  Some of the people on these Video Blogs have more make up then I will ever use in a lifetime ( and I thought I had a lot) but to them its a hobby and a passion.  I have enjoyed watching and some of them have fantastic storage and organization skills.  I am happy they shared all of this because I've picked up some fabulous ideas of my own.

I can't wait to try everything and to finally have my study neat and tidy!! It's half done and I see great promise!! I am excited.  I will finally have a great room to retreat to!

That's it from me for this time round. Enjoy the weekend.  Hope your all well.  I will be back soon!

I leave you with this: 

Everything is theoretically impossible until its done!!  Robert A Heinlein

( Bit like my study really)

Many Faces

I have recently had to reassess things in my life.  Not the life I have with Z and the kids but the people who I am surrounded by.

I have always taken people at face value. I'm not judgemental. I have never been a person that can lie very well or as they say these days FAKE it....I am upfront and very honest.  Direct for more of a better word.  This has not always been in my favour. However I have always felt its a better way in the long run and yet I sometimes have to ask myself did I ever really leave that High school I went to?

I will admit I'm not perfect.  I have gossiped at times and have maybe had a strong opinion on something but never have I gone out of my way to be vindictive, cruel or horrible to people.  Usually I will have it out with someone, we will say what we want and that will either enable us to move on and continue being friends or go our separate ways.

As I get older I like to think I'm becoming wiser, calmer and more understanding.  However this isn't how everyone operates.

I used to think that bullying happened only when you are young, immature, learning about your place in the world.  But I am mortified when I see that it still happens even with adults and older one's at that.

Its either people are dissatisfied with their own lives and have to attack others, some like doing it as it gives them a sense of power and others just do it because they need to make themselves feel better.  Others liken it to a form of sport.

I have been bullied most of my life.  Mainly by women.  Usually its jealousy.  I had to learn to stand up for myself pretty early on in my life.  I was never afraid to physically protect myself if I was attacked and verbally I usually just say my peace and go.

I know how it feels to sit at home crying because really you have done nothing wrong and yet you feel like a loser. 

I remember I loved going out with women more attractive than me who would get attention and then I wouldn't have to worry if I was hated because of it. I could just blend in and do my own thing.  I disliked being judged on the way I looked and people thinking they knew me just by seeing my face once.  If I got up and danced and was happy with a smile on my face I was judged for that too.  If I opened my mouth and discussed something I thought was interesting, I was labelled a know it all.  If too many men paid me attention then the claws would come out.   Its like there was always someone wanting to bring me down.

But you know what?  It didn't destroy me.  It made me angry, emotional and yes I would cry and feel hurt.  However, I have always had a very strong mind.  I allow myself a few weeks of downtime to let the hurt go away and then I pick myself up and move on.  There is nothing that will break me.  Its my way of saying Stuff you ( well the polite way of saying it).

This brings me back to the beginning of this blog about me assessing things in my life.  See,  no matter what age you are and no matter how many times you go through these things you don't always see a snake in the people that are around you.  Even if you think you know what one looks like.  People have many faces.  Some have more than most and others just have two.  The one they want you to see and the one they don't.

Some snakes have the face of an angel.  Magnificent personalities, they suck you in with their charisma and their vibrancy.  They make you feel that you are the greatest human being in the world and that you are their kindred spirit. Its like being drunk or in love.  You are seduced by the way they treat you. You think that you have finally found that friend you can talk to, about anything and everything. They, will always tell you if they are unhappy with something, that they will always be there for you and never ever judge you.  Its like meeting your twin.


And then out of the blue, they turn on you.  No explanation, no reason.  Just because they just don't care.  They don't care about your feelings, they may be  jealous of your life, they can't handle people who they cannot control or manipulate.  You may have said something but they won't bring it up, they will just harbour resentment.  They also choose the most vulnerable time to do it.  Like that final kick in the guts.  They have no backbone and when push comes to shove they don't have the courage.  None at all.   Basically they walk away and kick you to the curb. To me they are cowards and then they like to make themselves look like they were the saints or some kind of victim.    When really all they ever are a evil. Sadly there are many people like this in the world.  It's nothing new.

You really have to ask yourself: Are things just sometimes too good to be true?  Is that person a bit too friendly, are they a bit too infectious, do you really need to bare your soul to someone, do you have time and really can you trust anyone these days?

For me I think that was it.  No more.  I am tired.  I have my kids and so many responsibilities at this time in my life.  I am sick to death of the talking and the negativity.  Of so called people who can talk behind your back but not to your face.  Really are we not passed those days?  I was hoping that how you project yourself is how you are.    I am an adult, I don't have time for childish games.  If someone doesn't like me so be it.  You cannot be liked by everyone.  You want to talk about me go ahead.  At least I'm always in your thoughts.  All I know is that enough is enough.  From now on its out the door.  I won't even be polite about it anymore.  I do not want my children seeing this as an example.

I have many people I call my friends. Some are a constant, others distant but these friendships have been tried and tested.  You go through your ups and your downs but you always find a way to work it out.  You share your happiness, your sadness, birthdays, family celebrations.  You have mutual respect and you know your boundaries.  And no you are not twins.  Unless by birth.

These are the people that are in it for the long haul.  The one's who know who they are and actually know who YOU are. 

I am just glad that I am able to rise above this.  I know deep in my heart my trials and tribulations.  I know what battles I've fought, won and lost.  I know what I can handle and what I can't.  But most of all I know that no matter what the people who create evil, and use it to hurt people are the one's that will be left wondering was it worth it.

I have never met a vindictive person yet that hasn't received their own form of Karma.

I would like to say to anyone out there who has experienced something similar to believe in yourself.  Always remember we were all brought here for a purpose. Some of us have had to work hard for what we have, others not so much and others are brought here to test us.  Somewhere down the track you will be either rewarded or punished.  You will carry the scars but, you will learn from it all.

 In my most down times in life I have always told myself that the pain is temporary that things will always get better and can never be worse than in that moment. That tomorrow is a new day, and so is the day after and so is the day after that.

These experiences shape us.  Make us who we are.  The most important thing is to draw strength and stay standing.

There are two quotes I absolutely adore and I live by and they are:

"Better to die on your feet, than live on your knees"

and

"Better to be hated for who you are, then loved for who you are not"


There is always a bright side and there is always something better.  Next time you feel betrayed by someone just remember, its a reflection of their personality and not yours.  You were just too good a person and they didn't deserve you.


Keep smiling and watch out for those snakes.

Sleep?

I often sit here late at night reading or typing out this blog.  During the day its quite frantic.  I don't get a chance to sit down properly and think. My children make sure I am not left alone for more then a second and I can't hide in the toilet either as they will follow me. 

So I'm left to organize and plan and tick off things from my to do list late at night when everything is quiet and I can focus.

Problem is that when I'm finished (which is never before midnight at the least).  I find myself unable to fall asleep for quite a long time.  This is not something that's only recently come up because of my children.  I have had this issue since as far back as I can remember.  It doesn't matter how tired I am I cannot go to bed early.  I think the only time I was ever forced to go to sleep at 8.30pm was when I was pregnant and suffering from severe afternoon and night sickness.  I didn't have morning sickness. When I feel nauseous I have to lie down and shut my eyes and block it out.  I think this was more passing out then sleeping.

In my teenage and highschool years I remember reading my books or novels to way past midnight.  Sometimes I would finish a book in a couple of nights or a day and I guess I formed a habit whereby, unless I read before going to sleep it just wouldn't happen.  Even then my mind is racing and I'm thinking of 100 things I need to do, want to do and have to do.  I've tried counting sheep, I always have a cup of tea every night either a chamomile or mixture of something that hopefully does the trick.  But its not always successful!

The tv is a nuisance for me.  Z loves falling asleep to the sound of the tv.  I dislike it flickering, dislike people talking on there. Its just noise for me!   But it works for him so he has to either wear earphones or go in the lounge room.  If he starts to snore then there is no sleep for me.  I like to be in a dark quiet room.  No lighting and no movement.  Finally when I do go to sleep I am woken by one of my children.  One wants to cuddle up with us in bed as he's had a bad dream and the other wants to be fed.

At least I could sometimes sleep in on the weekend.   Yes could. Past tense.  There is no sleeping in with my kids ever. Those days are gone.

So how do I remedy my problem.  I need to try and go to bed at least by 10.  Read for about half an hour while drinking my tea and then lights out.  You need to train your body into a routine.  I have done this before and it has worked.  I think sometimes I just want to squeeze everything I can in my day so I don't miss a thing when really the most important thing is for me to sleep well so I can function the next day.

There are some rules to follow for a good nights sleep which is recommended by health professionals. I have tried all of these below and have had some success with most. Here are just a few:

No food consumption at least 3 hours before sleep time.

No Electrical devices such as phones, tvs or radio.  Even when they are off their frequencies can keep you awake.  And don't watch tv for at least an hour before bed. 

No coffee after midday.  Too much caffeine can keep you wired and wide awake.

No caffeinated soft drinks also after midday.  For the same reasons as the coffee.

Try to exercise at least 3 to 4 hours before but not right before bed otherwise you will be pumped to stay awake.  Exercising before bedtime only encourages you to feel less sleepy.

Drink a herbal tea or warm milk mixture to help you relax.

 

Read a light novel or magazine.

Take a few deep breaths in and out and clear your mind.

Wear an eyemask if needed to get complete darkness or keep your room dark.

Make sure you are in comfortable sleepwear.  Something that will not overheat you but keeps you snug.

Change your bedsheets at least once a week.  A nice clean bed will give you incentive to jump in and go to sleep.

Vacuum your bed, the floor and curtains.  Get rid of as many bed bugs and dust mites as you can.

When washing your sheets dry out in sunlight to get rid of dust mites as well.

If none of this works see a a doctor or health professional that may prescribe sleeping pills, but I would use this as a last resort.  There are some vitamin supplements you can take which might be safer. St John's Wort is a good one and Chamomile extract.  I have tried them and they have worked.  I'm not a fan of popping pills constantly.

Where there is a will there is a way.  If you know of any other remedies please share. Who knows we may all eventually get a good night's sleep!

Signing off with this today:  Hopefully one day we will remember the days we had sleep!